its 4.23am. i hate insomnia. no i dont have insomnia. i prefer thinking im still jet-lagged from my moms belly. im sure she slept at retarded times. that must be it. it has to be.
ive history class at 8am. 3 hours and 37 minutes from now, im expected to be at school learning history. i havent decided if i wanna go. alright if i go, i might learn something. ive been to school like 4 times in the past 3 weeks so i could use some knowledge. if i dont go, ill get to maybe, maybe sleep the morning away. if i fall asleep soon. if im not in bed by the time the son comes up, i'll forget sleep today. i'll be a good dog owner and bring russ for a long long walk so he can irritate all the other dogs and run away when he sees cats. be a good dog owner or be a knowledgable person. damn this is tough. time will tell.
5 things normal people do not know about dogs
1. dogs have eye lashes
2. dogs can sneeze/cough/burp
3. dogs have nightmares
4. dogs are unbelievably annoying sometimes
5. dogs know how to manipulate humans
bet you didnt know that.
if i lay in bed long enough i will definitely fall asleep. it will happen. it will.
yesterday i had like really bad hiccups and as always i googled the cure for hiccups. i found the usual, drink from the other side of the cup, dry swallow sugar, a shot of lemon, hold your breath. none of which ever had immediate effect. but then i came across one i'd never seen. eat a whole table spoon of peanut butter. and guess what, within a minute it was gone. always trust peanut butter. my mom tells me its all in your head. well whatever it is, peanut butter works so next time you have hiccups, just indulge in everyones favourite spread.

alot of people i know went for some novena thing today. i still dont feel the need to go, which is bloody screwed up since i try to be like a good religious person. sometimes i think im agnostic and the next moment im like NO no way, i do believe in god. or do i? ive to get confirmed this year and im still not sure if i believe in god or not. thats hypocrisy and i dont wanna stand among people who'd die for jesus with a unsure mind. im unsure but i pray everyday and i do believe jesus protects me. but then why do i question whether jesus is real. im thinking way too much now its giving me a headache. i guess i'll try and if i still feel this way then confirmation is just not for me, at least not right now. but a lot can change in 2 months. alot can change in a minute. i hope it does. i pray it does. i dont wanna be forced to be confirmed if im still this way. i hope im not. this is not good at all. it wasnt serious to me before, but it is now.
i guess we'll see what happens. im too confused to do anything now. i think i'll go sit with russ. theres nothing like an awesome dog.