I have put myself in the ultimate fix and I will get out and I will make sure I do it well because its the only way I can be free to accomplish what I know I'm made to do without feeling dissappointed in myself not because of the outcome but because of the dissappointment which will be reflected on faces of the people who matter.
You know how you taste a chocolate and you know that thats the best chocolate you've ever tasted so you will not under any circumstance settle for another chocolate because the one you tasted is so good and you know you have to have it and you know you can have because well.. why the hell not. And you know it will be difficult as hell to get that chocolate but you have to try anyway because somehow you know that its within your capability to find that chocolate and consume it eventhough hard work will be extremely neccesary. But then when you haven't actually tasted the chocolate but you know it will be your favourite. The wrapper, the smell, the ingrediants, everything is perfect and it makes you want it even more because it seems less likely and that adds to the thrill. Yes thats the feeling. I think I feel motivated.
Come November 12th, my life will start the way I want it to. And I will do everything in my power to walk down the path I believe is set for me. I feel enlightened. Like Buddha. Everything is so clear. Now all I have to do is make it happen. I have to find the damn chocolate.
