hello i screwed up my english exam last week cause i wrote the wrong bloody format. i spent like 5 minutes on letter writting and moved on to the compo. yes i now realise that maybe that wasnt very wise. but im quite happy with my compo so yeah. that makes me feel better.
then i had oral. i had to wait for like 2 and a half hours cause i was the time keeper. it was utterly depressing watching 10 minutes go by over and over and over again. i think oral went well. i didnt say like and you know too many times. i didnt speed talk. i tried to pronounce every word to the best of my ability.
i think ill start studying today. i know i can remember things eaily so hopefully that works again. usually the week before the exam i start getting worried and study a few hours a day but this time its like nothing is working. i look at my timetable, i know i have alot to study but i cant. ss is in 2 days. and math omg and physics. damn. i have to go find some motivation now.
exams are seriously just a waste of paper.

i went to church yesterday after a very very long time cause my mother was shouting about how i think im muslim. i dont think im muslim, i just dont wanna go to church every week. id rather pray in my room. i dont like standing in a congregation of people whom i dont particularly like and sing songs and pretend like im paying attention when i know i cannot concentrate. the environment is too distracting.

oh yes happy birthday beatrice. ive known you for like the longest time..thanks for being awesome and putting up with me for so long, i know i can be the worlds most annoying person sometimes. so yeah have a great day and be good ok.

bye.