hello nat. thank you for visiting my blog. i am feeling happy today. i am talking to you now. you just told me that i should be a shrink.---(we were talking)-- you just said " this is fun". you're off getting a raisin bread now. now the conversation box below is blinking orange. its you. you are back from getting a raisin bread. i just welcomed you back. you said you tripped and alarm in a computer store. i remember telling you last week that your mom dropped you at birth. and then said i no wait she bounced you and probably played a game of basketball. and you laughed. but i dont think you believed me. somehow i think you do now. now we are talking about interesting things which are nice to talk about. you do not want to go ice skating with me. we have to go to town and comment on everything. but town is such a boring and sad place. oh well. the past week has been retarded.
14 april- mys moms birthdays.
there was a bbq. danny shoved a big white candle in a loaf of bread cause we didnt get a cake. (cake shops arent exactly open at 2am) yeh my mom was late! there were quite a few people there. hah the bilabila.. the cheer thing they did what hilarious. there was alot of erm.. singing. danny got another chance to shout at the policemen. well at least he didnt spill coffee on them again. closed up at about 5 plus. nic michelle and i went to mcdonalds with des and brandon. i was hungry cause i cant exactly eat many things at a bbq. we saw nor. haha. danny and his people came. i was tired.
21 april-charltons birthdays.
there was a cake. hah it was retarded. in the middle of the cake there was like a cup(made of chocolate) filled with whipped cream. i think charlton ate the cup.(didnt think id ever say that) dylan had so much of fun doing the same thing over and over and over and over and over with a piece of yellow play dough.

my exams are next week. i have to do some serious studying. my gosh. all that girl does during math is sit and draw stupid japanese anime things that look the same in every one of her drawings. i hate japanese anime. i mean like what is so nice about drawing skinny, little faced, big eyed creatures a million times?

i remember malay tution. i used to have malay tution like in pri 5. my teacher was sharifah. animal killing-prawn in bread eating-coffee in plate drinking-key is fish tank-sleeping during tution sharifah. she didnt help me much. she was real funny though.
i haven't started on the piece for my art exam. so annoying. i have so much to do. i havent even chosen the topic.

school yesterday was like full of drama. especially during english. i offended the erm..people. gossiping and rumours start NOW. but hey everyone does it so yeah. i found out so many things last week about past friends. and i was really shocked at first and then i realised. its been done before. i kinda expected but i didnt at the same time. i sorta thought everything was settled but i guess not.

i didnt have much sleep yesterday. i intended to study. then i watched lost and law and order and i drew and ordered mc donalds. it does come faster at like 3+ you know. after eating i couldnt sleep so i watched more tv. then i slept at 5.30. woke up at 6 for school. therefore i had a good day. im always happier when i dont sleep.

so 2 of my aunties passed away this weekend. i knew them but i was not close to them. my mom was though. and one of them was involved in a hit and run and my mom reached just 2 minutes after she died. so thats funeral in malaysia on sunday and funeral here on monday. how devastating is that. well i guess thats life huh.

i had 2.4 yesterday. i thought i was going to die. i didnt though. but i really wanted to eat paddle pop after that and i couldnt find paddle pop anywhere. and omg i didnt know paddle pop had a mascot. after years of eating it. wow.

just a few minutes ago. i was lying down on the floor. then i randomly looked at my foot. i saw red. oh no i realised my foot was bleeding. i desperately looked for a tissue. michelle provided me with one. then my mom and i searched my whole foot for a cut. but we found nothing.

im feel sad. i feel weird. i feel like i did something wrong. i feel like a baker who spend hours perfecting his batter for his cake and then it burnt cause he set the temperature to 300 degrees instead of 200. i am dissappointed with nothing.

i have this friend. she keeps telling me about things she doesnt like about this other girl and i cant help but to think. i see those same things in me. SO is it me shes talking about. who knows? everyones always sneaky.

heres something i have to think about. i have a couple of friends whom i do not particularly like but i still talk to them because i feel like i cannot hurt them by just ignoring them. we've had some good times but everythings just so annoying now. and i dont wanna say anything.
so am i just an idiot or am i a bloody hypocrite?